Fatherhood Woke Me Up

Feeling my way through the darkness

Guided by a beating heart

The transition to fatherhood has not been one that was necessarily easy. It has been filled with nothing but trial and error. I have learned there are rights and wrongs that only pertain to parenting my kids. I have found what I hope to be the successful and proper way to get my sons through the toddler years.

I can’t tell where the journey will end

But I know where to start

Even before the kids were born I was so dead set on how they would be raised and how I would breeze through parenting like it was a P.E. Class where I just show up and get credit. That isn’t the case at all. Parenting is amazing and fulfilling and fun. It is also the most difficult thing there is to do. You could raise thirty kids the exact same way with no idea what results you may yield.

They tell me I’m too young to understand

 I guess my age is a bit off-putting to people. On the cusp of becoming a whole 24 years-old yet I try and think before I speak. I wouldn’t go as far as to call myself an old-soul or mature but rather thoughtful. I have to be thoughtful, I have three kids to raise. I have to be comfortable in my own beliefs and morals or else how can I raise my kids right?

So wake me up when it’s all over; When I’m wiser and I’m older

Every day passes in a blur-like quickness. Only yesterday it seems they were rolling dangerously to the edge of the bed. Now they run and scamper as I watch their little brother go side to side, working his way towards the same edge of the bed that kept me nervous for months a year and a half ago.

All this time I was finding myself 

I never realized how much I needed fatherhood until I held my first borns. I needed the love, the compassion, the fulfillment this part of my life has brought me. I needed to learn that pure unequivocal love existed. The bond between parent and child. This role has made me complete, it has given my life something it lacked for years. I gained meaning.

I didn’t know I was lost

Twenty-one years of my life I spent lost. Then my children came into my life. Not every day is easy, but every day of knowing this is what I was meant to be, a father, is worth it.

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5 comments on “Fatherhood Woke Me Up
  1. Like it or not, you ARE an old soul. But with a very futuristic twist. You are a family man with morals and values, but with an open mind, to consider that families encompass a wide variety of combinations and that parenting can be applied in many forms. As long as love is the motivator, the return on our investment is worth every crazy, hair pulling moment:) Beautifully expressed, Briton:)

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